[ of course dean doesn't answer, he's stiffly stoic as always which is frustrating in its own right because cas has never really had a difficult time spilling his heart. even five years ago when he was a different creature, honestly came to him easily enough, and he might not have been initially forthcoming but he's never had so much trouble as dean does when it comes to discussing difficult topics.
but dean is dean, he's always been dean, and cas will always be patient with him.
he's not sure what to say, though. there's not much to say, no real way to rectify this and cas hates that, he's built his life around assisting dean, holding him up and keeping him strong, being reliable, being the rock he needs to lean on. not being able to achieve that readily is.. upsetting.
after a moment, cas shifts and slides an arm around dean's back, another around his front and tugs him into a strong, tight hug, hands grasping in dean's jacket, white-knuckled. it's all he can do, all he can give and honestly, for all he's trying to be tough for dean here cas needs this too, he's needed it from the moment dean showed his face here in the fleet. ]
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but dean is dean, he's always been dean, and cas will always be patient with him.
he's not sure what to say, though. there's not much to say, no real way to rectify this and cas hates that, he's built his life around assisting dean, holding him up and keeping him strong, being reliable, being the rock he needs to lean on. not being able to achieve that readily is.. upsetting.
after a moment, cas shifts and slides an arm around dean's back, another around his front and tugs him into a strong, tight hug, hands grasping in dean's jacket, white-knuckled. it's all he can do, all he can give and honestly, for all he's trying to be tough for dean here cas needs this too, he's needed it from the moment dean showed his face here in the fleet. ]