[ Really, Cas' expression doesn't exactly speak of the utmost confidence in the idea, but it's not as if Dean has much in it, either. All he can figure is that it'll go catastrophically wrong, that it won't solve a single thing and he'll simply be back at square one with even fewer options. It's an accident waiting to happen, the worst kind, and while Dean has all the dire need in the world for it to go well, he still has little faith in it. Even considering Sam's enthusiasm - if you could call it that - when it comes to communication between them, Dean just doesn't see it being a conversation that will end well.
Except right now, this time, he needs it to.
Trying to loosen up in his own words, Dean heaves a breath, not entirely sure if he should let go of Cas so he can remove himself fully or allow himself to keep on clinging with all the silent needs he hasn't had the opportunity to pass along. ]
Yeah, we'll see.
[ Good ideas aren't exactly his forte, something he wants to say, wants to admit me to but doesn't think he could handle the conversation that would need to come after. Because even while it' s a conversation that needs to be had, it's one thing at a time, and right now- right now it's his inability to deal with Sam that's on the table. Even that is its own struggle, Dean's own personal fight against his past and the moments that lead to his death and he'd be lying if he said that every time he looked at Sam, he didn't see his last few seconds. But he keeps telling himself that's inconsequential and so one day he's sure to believe it, except he finally looks back to Cas, trying to remain ever stoic. ]
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Except right now, this time, he needs it to.
Trying to loosen up in his own words, Dean heaves a breath, not entirely sure if he should let go of Cas so he can remove himself fully or allow himself to keep on clinging with all the silent needs he hasn't had the opportunity to pass along. ]
Yeah, we'll see.
[ Good ideas aren't exactly his forte, something he wants to say, wants to admit me to but doesn't think he could handle the conversation that would need to come after. Because even while it' s a conversation that needs to be had, it's one thing at a time, and right now- right now it's his inability to deal with Sam that's on the table. Even that is its own struggle, Dean's own personal fight against his past and the moments that lead to his death and he'd be lying if he said that every time he looked at Sam, he didn't see his last few seconds. But he keeps telling himself that's inconsequential and so one day he's sure to believe it, except he finally looks back to Cas, trying to remain ever stoic. ]
Except i'm gonna fuck it up, right?