[ cas can only shake his head, because arguing blame in a broken world.. there's just no point, no reason. they fought city hall, and they lost, and the fact that they weren't able to pick up all the shattered pieces fast enough - that's not dean's fault. they strove for what they believed in, right to their dying breaths, and while cas knows that it was their decisions that directly led to the end of the world..
.. honestly, he can't say for certain that he wouldn't make the same choices, if given a second chance. how much is it worth, selling out to protect a planet? years ago, he would have easily understood the greater good, the idea that it would be okay to sacrifice half a world's worth of people if it meant saving the other half and ushering in paradise on earth, but now?
ah, dean's rubbed off on him. cas is pretty sure he'd ram himself into that wall over and over again until he broke himself utterly against it, that he'd always fight for the right for every human being to live, no matter the personal cost. their decisions led to something worse than the apocalypse, sure, but cas no longer believes that the ends justify the means. but then, if it meant saving even half of the lives that had been lost..
he could think himself in circles over this for hours. has before. but the point is, he can't blame dean for doing everything in his power to try to shape the world into what he thought was right, for giving everything to protect humanity from a threat that they never could have hoped to overcome. he shakes his head. ]
It was out best shot, and you know it. We both know it. There was no other way, nothing to be done for it. You can't beat yourself up over it forever.
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[ cas can only shake his head, because arguing blame in a broken world.. there's just no point, no reason. they fought city hall, and they lost, and the fact that they weren't able to pick up all the shattered pieces fast enough - that's not dean's fault. they strove for what they believed in, right to their dying breaths, and while cas knows that it was their decisions that directly led to the end of the world..
.. honestly, he can't say for certain that he wouldn't make the same choices, if given a second chance. how much is it worth, selling out to protect a planet? years ago, he would have easily understood the greater good, the idea that it would be okay to sacrifice half a world's worth of people if it meant saving the other half and ushering in paradise on earth, but now?
ah, dean's rubbed off on him. cas is pretty sure he'd ram himself into that wall over and over again until he broke himself utterly against it, that he'd always fight for the right for every human being to live, no matter the personal cost. their decisions led to something worse than the apocalypse, sure, but cas no longer believes that the ends justify the means. but then, if it meant saving even half of the lives that had been lost..
he could think himself in circles over this for hours. has before. but the point is, he can't blame dean for doing everything in his power to try to shape the world into what he thought was right, for giving everything to protect humanity from a threat that they never could have hoped to overcome. he shakes his head. ]
It was out best shot, and you know it. We both know it. There was no other way, nothing to be done for it. You can't beat yourself up over it forever.