[ it's more than obvious to cas's eyes that dean's jittery, and cas can easily commiserate with the sensation of not fitting into your skin, feeling that itch; sometimes he still feels it, isn't sure it'll ever go away.
so he finds it difficult to resist the urge to reach out and touch, to smooth a hand through dean's hair in a way he knows might be comforting, but dean's edgy, he's tight and wound up, like a cornered animal, and cas knows when not to overstep his bounds. there was once a time when dean was a touchy-feely guy, when he was always clapping cas's shoulder or tugging at his tie, being physical in a way that just seemed so natural and cas was too awkward then, too clumsy in his vessel to be able to properly appreciate it.
sometimes it still comes through, dean's warmth, but it's a guttering candle flame in comparison with the inviting, roaring hearth it once was; dean's gotten colder, distant, gone to places even cas can't reach. but then, they all had, all of them back home, no one could live through what they endured without losing something important and precious along the way. ]
Yeah, yeah.
[ he says, shrugging boneless and easy, before he's meandering to the door and pausing halfway through to glance back toward him. ]
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Date: 8 Jun 2016 05:42 (UTC)so he finds it difficult to resist the urge to reach out and touch, to smooth a hand through dean's hair in a way he knows might be comforting, but dean's edgy, he's tight and wound up, like a cornered animal, and cas knows when not to overstep his bounds. there was once a time when dean was a touchy-feely guy, when he was always clapping cas's shoulder or tugging at his tie, being physical in a way that just seemed so natural and cas was too awkward then, too clumsy in his vessel to be able to properly appreciate it.
sometimes it still comes through, dean's warmth, but it's a guttering candle flame in comparison with the inviting, roaring hearth it once was; dean's gotten colder, distant, gone to places even cas can't reach. but then, they all had, all of them back home, no one could live through what they endured without losing something important and precious along the way. ]
Yeah, yeah.
[ he says, shrugging boneless and easy, before he's meandering to the door and pausing halfway through to glance back toward him. ]
Anything you need, you know where to find me.